Lying on my queen size bed
Staring at my bedroom ceiling
I wonder suddenly my destiny of love

Painting an everlasting love story
from every novel and movies
But reality contradicts mostly
I wonder the real definition of love

Going through thick and thin till old
Walking by the beach side by side
Holding each other hands tightly
Unwilling to let go
Never look back
I wonder the definition of forever

As time passes by
the meaning of love change
the direction of love change
the casts in your love change
I wonder the definition of time

Loneliness struck me
On my bed i fell asleep
Still not knowing the definition of love

Did we fail to portray a better image of Malay/Muslim?

Just heard from my good friend today that she says her friend lost some amount of cash for inviting guest that really gave below market value. Fancy giving $20 for 2 person in The Fullerton!!!

My immediate question to her is : Are they Malay?
She hesitate for a while and reply : Yes...

Being a malay/muslim myself, am i in a better position to criticize my own race even though i am what they called half-blooded malay???

Definitely not.... Nobody is in a position to criticize one another but there should be some discussion on this...

Myth No.1 - They do not know the market rate because Malay usually held wedding at void deck with just buffet lunch. Fact: People should know the market rate of hotel. Even if they don't know, they can open their mouth and ask around.

Myth No.2 - Malays are unable to climb because we are minority. Fact: Do not expect other race to respect you until you make the change and prove to them.

Myth No.3 - Malays status are increasing especially when many live in bigger houses and car. Fact: True for some. But mostly, they are just not planning. I have seen many people buying condo but ended up selling because it is strain to them. Even with cars. They just want to show to people that they can afford!

Myth No.4 - Being a Muslim hinders their life especially with the phobia of being labelled as terrorist. That's why some Muslim themselves are trying to portray "Moderate Muslim". Fact: Not knowing fully the meaning and practice of Muslim is a major issue. Our last prophet pbuh is illiterate but reputable. Until now, Europeans voted him the best leader. Why? Because he shows the real way of leading Muslim life which is live within your means and spare a thoughts for others.

soo with all the above excuses, do i think that we fail in portraying a better image of Malay/Muslim? Yes is the answer....

Soo long as we are unable to portray what a Muslim should portray, then we are a failure to portray a better image of Malay. Malay is just a race. The thing that can change people is the religion.....

Having dinner with my colleague.... I always luv gathering but i got phobia of such gathering here.....

Reason No. 1 - First dish is always the infamous Lechon (their version of suckling pig).... Being an only Muslim, it is extremely difficult that i have to suit their culture in the expense of my discomfort...

Reason No. 2 - I have tendency of leaving the scene earlier which left discomfort to my colleagues... But no choice leh... I am on the verge of puking

Reason No. 3 - Subsequent dishes are mainly meat - chicken, beef etc... Doesn't matter that it will not be halal since i don't eat meat at all....

Welll..... by the 9th month staying in Cebu, i should be used to it..... Ok lah.... but i suffer from headache and discomfort for the rest of the night.... and soul-searching my devotion of being a Muslim and the definition of 'Moderate Muslim' which seems to be a topic these days...... whatever.....

In a distance
I saw human passing by one another
With different tasks and goals
To whom should we pour our sorrows and happiness

In a distance
I realise that human are
ever demanding
ever discontented
more often wishing for more than are given

In a distance
I realise that human forget that
the world is just like a train interchange
where we board on the train the moment we are born
where we ride on the train the moment we start breathing
where we got off the train the moment we reach our destination

In a distance
I realise that our individual life is just an invincible dot in the universe
where human protect it soo much that
causes unhappiness
causes war and pain
causes uncertainty

In a distance
I realise that human
will never realise

Hmmm.... Feeling a bit down today.... Just trying to write something that makes me feel better.....

It's MF birthday... Never got excited when comes to friends b'day..... Maybe things really change when you are stationed overseas.... You tend to appreciate more your group of friends and your family members even though you feel like wringing their neck when they really gets on your nerve....

Welll.... that's life... always and forever take things for granted....

So at least i gotta talk nonsense with my friends in VP during my short trip back..... at times, i wish that i am still handling Varsity Park as it is my baby.... never mind, it's just a job....